Day in and day out. Until you are dead.
As I descend into the lonely uncharted territory self-reflection brings I need to constantly remind myself why I felt so compelled to initially indulge in this journey. When a person begins “waking up” they first realize the “reality” which knits what they have grown to critic and resolve with idealistic hollywood viewpoint is in fact a cold, harsh and existentially bound series of ideas and institutions headed by ruthless power hungry individuals you were told your whole life were your friends. When you begin this quest you may start by expressing your anger and dislike of the many unjust practices which require human suffering for their existence. You may want to “feed the starving people” and that in itself is enough (in your eyes) to devote your time and make sacrifices for a cause greater then yourself. Then you probe deeper and deeper still, you realize that it is not so simple as “the corporations vs humans”, you realize that you have been indoctrinated with a status quo affirming education and that your lexicon for challenging this oppression was developed there as well (Orwellian literature). You realize that the motive to “feed the starving children” will not suffice in motivating the brainwashed selfish masses to take the necessary action to dismantle the web of lies they have assembled and become dependent upon. You realize that these people have been trained to ingest information in a certain way, and that any enlightening must utilize (somehow) these neural conduits hollowed by mindfuk incorporated in order to communicate with them. Essentially, you have to dumb it down.
So What the fuck am I trying to say?
The more committed to fadsmashers I become the more its meaning becomes dissolved, I see myself doing it out of obligation more so then necessity (EVEN THOUGH ITS MORE NECESSARY NOW THEN EVER!!!), as is the natural progression of any artistic endeavor goes that gains an audience with demands, expectations and the need for some consistent approach. It’s like saying the same word over and over again until it loses all meaning. When it does lose meaning (for me), I feel compelled to transcend my old thinking and establish a new one that is more refined and concise. The problem is you end up straying so far from the shore that no one understands what the fuck you are talking about eventually. I seriously am skeptical of anyone who constantly touts the same old lines, posts the same old shit, for years on end, and doesn’t show any signs of an evolving opinion; those who seem to have become concretized in their ideology simply stopped thinking.
It’s not how long one has studied sociopolitics that is important; it’s how fast they progress through the stages. I could easily keep my media within the confines of what is comprehensible by the people I am trying to enlighten, but I would not be being true to pursuit of virtue, justice, and honesty. This entails when we have it figured out, that we step back. For example: Just because Zionist influence (namely those of Jewish descent) seem to have every oppressive industry on lock down, it’s not enough to simply call these people out, as there is an agenda that is equally sinister that awaits taking its place, and will leech the efforts of anyone trying to do this towards its own ends. My critic of Zionism, is not an endorsement either directly and or indirectly for these halfwit trigger happy self-serving types who simply don’t trust the government and want to replace the ziosphere with their primitive ideology which ultimately only serves the needs of the wealthy capitalists assholes who fund the shock media that gets them in a economically viable scurry. Fadsmashers is more ethically and philosophically refined then that, in that we are honest and do not selectively bullshit ourselves whenever there is a pitfall to our ideology (which should be evolving). I also won’t say “fuck it” and won’t revert to nihilism or true cynicism (which entails not thinking you can change anything).
As a sidenote this is my declaration that I will never do "crazy shit", and if they say I did, they are full of shit.
I honestly and sincerely would like to make the world a better place to waste, I have no grande vision for how it should be (although I am working on it), and no ulterior motive asides from smashing and humiliating bullshit liars, their ideas and their lifestyles, humiliating the unquestioned lives of moral morons who are simply lead by the nose to any cause that seems worthy of a fight because they are bored out of their fucking minds, want some kind of moral balancing for being complicit. I have given up arguing with shitbrained selfish fox news viewers, instead I focus on those who watch Olbermann, and John Stewart because they mean well, but are as still brainwashed and complicit as the faux newstards they make a culture of criticizing. I honestly want an end to unjust human suffering, this requires that I teach people how to think critically, not teach them what to think.
If you still think its "all crazy conspiracy theories and stuffs" you are a brainwashed idiot who deserves it. You really do. I have no aspiration to save you.
I challenge you to think, and keep thinking, I challenge you to walk alone and really see it. If everyone is waving their fist at you, even your friends, then you are onto something DEEP. If not, you aint saying shit. Tragic indeed. But hip. Fucking hip.